I really hope I'm not taxing your patience or indulgence too far, friends.
I've covered this here before, I know, the anniversary of my son Kevin's passing.
It's an emotional time for me yes, always will be so. But my motives in posting are not to seek your sympathy,( though I know you sympathize)
Most of you have also suffered profound sad losses of your own n your lives; beloved family members, or dear and close friends.
Many are far more recent ones too; the pain so new for you still
I've had the benefit that time grants us in healng our hearts and finding our peace.The loss of a child of any age is something that a parent can never fully recover from, I've come to realize. I look at my husband, he seems slightly "broken".. a kind of weariness I see. It makes my heart sad.
But we've both found a peace and acceptance the best that we are able to.....just as we all do
I'm so thankful for my blessings of family; and all family is forever, those that are here with us, and those who watch over us from above.
So, it's not about that aspect at all...
I just always feel a strong urge at this time of year for my son's life to be remembered. It's a bit hard to explain....
As he had no wife or children.,one of my saddest thoughts is that as time goes on, Kevin will be forgotten; relegated to a name and dates on a headstone.
Unless you made a mark in life through fame of some type, I suppose this is a natural and unavoidable course of events for all of us eventually; the way of the world as it marches on.
For his family, Kevin will always be sadly missed and lovingly remembered as long as we are here.
To share a tiny share a tiny part of him with others also just bring me good feelings.. a type of reaffirming that he was here... if that makes sense..
On this anniverary date that always weighs down my heart, I'll follow my usual traditions that bring me comfort.
I wrote a poem for my son, something I've been unable to do in the past, and will read it to him tomorrow at the cemetery; my feelings from my heart
I dont want to overload you with such weighty things, so wont post it here... but do have a short clip of pictures that I'd be honoured if you'd view again for me. ( most of you have seen these before)
I like to think of when we are eventually reunited with all our loved ones gone before us as a wonderful new awakening.. such a peaceful and comforting thought.
http://picasaweb.google.com/shamrock045 ... directlink